Why do they have to leave me?
I thought it was all right for me to be left alone, after all it was my decision. I never knew that I'll be feeling this way after they left. Here goes the story for a clearer picture.
One day while I was going my Mom asked me if I want to come with them on Hong Kong for a week for a short vacation. My initial reaction was I did not want to go, I do have classes and I can't afford to miss any of them. When I finally arrived home, my Mom said that my older brother will come so basically I have to be left alone in our house. I was like 'WTF all by myself in a week?!?' I paused for a second to think and came to the decision that I would just go with them. After my answer she called my cousin to reserve us a ticket. Yeah that fast! But after an hour or two my father said that one of us (older brother and me) must be left. At that time it was really all right for me to not go with them, I have sembreak anyway to go there. So there everything was fine that time. Then as the time of their departure drew nearer and nearer, It came to my knowledge that my father postponed our, MY sembreak trip. For what reason? Because no one else in the family is available that time to go with me. And that day I started regreting what I said, all I said.
And this moring before dawn was there scheduled flight. It was difficult for me getting a straight sleep a while ago. For some weird reason I just find myself staring either at the wall or at the ceiling. I was feeling heavy that time, thinking that they all get to enjoy and something in their list of amazing events, whereas I will have a plain ol' day.
Up to this time of my writing I am feeling that feeling of REGRETS, or perhaps even JEALOUSY. I thought I will be fine all along, I thought I can live with it, I thought I will never have to feel this way. But what's happening are all the opposite of my expectations...
Ako po si Kyne Darby L. Santos...
Ako ay 16 years old pa lng
Ang birthdate ko ay December 04, 1990
Nag-aaral ako sa School of Saint Anthony
Ang section ko ay IV-Magsaysay
Here's a little something from someone to get to know me better
Actually most of them are facts
Acoording to him...
My Soul Number is SEVEN.
Deep, serious, introspective, and analytical, I accept nothing at face
value, and I am always probing into the hidden side or deeper meaning
of situations and people. I am fascinated by the mysterious and
unknown. I enjoy periods of solitude in peaceful surroundings, and need
time to study, reflect, or meditate. I may be given to much daydreaming
and flights of the imagination as well. The ocean has a powerful
attraction for me. The study of philosophy, psychology, scientific
research, metaphysics, or religion appeals to me. I am scientific in my
approach to Truth.
Private, reserved, and rather secretive, there are probably very few
who truly know and understand my inner thoughts, feelings, hopes, and
aspirations. Unless I learn to share my deeper self more freely, and to
be less of an idealistic perfectionist, I may be rather lonely.
Why do they have to leave me?
I thought it was all right for me to be left alone, after all it was my decision. I never knew that I'll be feeling this way after they left. Here goes the story for a clearer picture.
One day while I was going my Mom asked me if I want to come with them on Hong Kong for a week for a short vacation. My initial reaction was I did not want to go, I do have classes and I can't afford to miss any of them. When I finally arrived home, my Mom said that my older brother will come so basically I have to be left alone in our house. I was like 'WTF all by myself in a week?!?' I paused for a second to think and came to the decision that I would just go with them. After my answer she called my cousin to reserve us a ticket. Yeah that fast! But after an hour or two my father said that one of us (older brother and me) must be left. At that time it was really all right for me to not go with them, I have sembreak anyway to go there. So there everything was fine that time. Then as the time of their departure drew nearer and nearer, It came to my knowledge that my father postponed our, MY sembreak trip. For what reason? Because no one else in the family is available that time to go with me. And that day I started regreting what I said, all I said.
And this moring before dawn was there scheduled flight. It was difficult for me getting a straight sleep a while ago. For some weird reason I just find myself staring either at the wall or at the ceiling. I was feeling heavy that time, thinking that they all get to enjoy and something in their list of amazing events, whereas I will have a plain ol' day.
Up to this time of my writing I am feeling that feeling of REGRETS, or perhaps even JEALOUSY. I thought I will be fine all along, I thought I can live with it, I thought I will never have to feel this way. But what's happening are all the opposite of my expectations...
